Things and Stuff

Um ... yeah ... really busy this week. Sorry gang. Posts to come soon. For now check out this picture that OQB sent me.

Isn't that cute.

Overhead After Work

TSG: Oooh, remind me when we get to the car that I have gossip to tell.

GB: Ok?

TSG: We need to wait until we are out of the building and in a cone of silence.

GB: Is this a professional cone of silence or a sexual cone of silence?

TSG: Professional Cone of Silence.

GB: Alright.

TSG: When has my sex life ever had a cone of silence?

GB: Good Point.

Things Are Gonna Change … I Can Feel

Now is the time for action. My one year blogaversary was last week so I was reading about what I was doing a year ago when I started all of this, and Dammit I was fun! It is time to sit up straight, grab a drink and hit the dance floor! Seriously people I need some inappropriate male attention, not just for me but all of you. I am suppose to be keeping the dream alive here, not moping about lost love and other melancholy feelings.

I informed Awesome today at lunch that I need to go drinking and dancing and make out with a boy(s) -other than him. His response … “so you want me to pick you up, take you out, pay for everything, make sure you get home safe and watch you make out with other guys.” “Yeah, kinda. But you don’t have to pay for everything. You up for it?” So sometime soon, Mr. Awesome and I are going to have an adventure, something we haven’t done in months and you will get to hear all about here first. Well, the lady might get a call before it hits the internet, but you all are definitely second.

I am not saying that all the sad writing about my broken little heart or the stress in my life is behind me entirely but I am trying to be proactive here people! The Single Girl is going to pull up her socks, put on some lip gloss and find the twinkle in her eye again.

Wish me luck. This feels good to think about. Good for me!

TSG

Personas

TSG is a great persona, she likes to drink and go out and be a bit wild at times. I have been told that TSG is about 60% me and the rest is the persona. She is by some accounts the most fun version of me. Even GB, OQB, The Lady, and Awesome are only the pieces that I have selected to show you the reader.

My current favourite blogs are the ones by people I don’t know and will never know because, like me they have chosen to write anonymously. Their stories are wonderful and the life they show me is very colourful. It is fun to think if I ever met them in “real life” if we could ever figure out that we have been friends for months, reading and commenting to one another on life, love and other random thoughts. Or would our face to face personas be so different that we would not know?

I got to thinking about all of this because I read a blog entry by the SSM – I should know better, I know – and I thought this isn’t the man I know. Who is this, and who is he trying to kid with this kind of talk? And then I realized, this is his writing persona, and the bravado well I have some armchair psychology theories, but I will keep them to myself for today. And really if he ever read TSG, he would probably wonder, who the hell is this woman and why is she so brash?

It is fascinating to me that in this digital age when you can put your life on the internet for all to read or see, what it is that each of us choose to put out there – if anything at all. The persona each of us has picked to give to the world, the things we show, the things we hide and the pieces of our life we choose to highlight to make the story worth reading, the picture more interesting or the blog worth having.

Today as I sit in front of my computer in my Sunday clothes I feel much like the 40% that isn’t TSG and for today that is just fine.

Sincerely,

Me

Home Again, Home Again, Jigitty Jig

I have finally arrived back at home so starting very soon faithful readers (all 6 of you) the single girl will be posting regularly again. I actually have a few posts floating around in my head including one from OQB, who I had the pleasure of seeing this week.

For now I must run and read the 200+ emails in my inbox at work.

Guh.

But before I do that ...

Happy Blogaversary to me,
Happy Blogaversary to me,
Happy Blogaversary to The Single Girl,
Happy Blogaversary to me,

That's right, one year ago yesterday I posted on a blog for the very first time. Who would have thunk that I would make it a year?

TSG

Connections

I have been away for a bit, but don’t worry everything is fine. In some ways it is better than fine, I have been with my family for days and now I am on my way to spend time with my friends – or as the lady has been know to call friends – the family you chose. Being far from my family and many of my close friends is a tough thing for me at times and right now is no exception. The only problem with this kind of travel and visit is that I always end up over extending myself. This time I was thinking I wouldn’t do it, I am not telling too many people that I am here and I am only going to spend time with one or two people. I will relax I need it.

But no, now I have booked myself solid from the time I get there until the time I fly out. Apparently I like to be over extended. Truly I just want to see everyone and get a hug or two and feel connected. Relaxing at my friend’s house alone won’t make me feel better, lunching and beers and tea and hugs and pregnant bellies are what a really want and need.

What I have not been connected to in the past four days is the internet. Sometimes that was tough, but only because instead of watching TV these days, when I am bored I play on the internet. So my evening after all the old folks and young families went to bed I tended to get a bit twitchy but I am good now. It is nice to be here connected once again to my facebook, my email, my blogs, and to you my readers. You may not give me hugs, but you do make me feel comfort.

Oh … yeah … the wedding. No boys worth my time so I spent my evening with the Lady drinking beer and dancing. Way better than getting drunk and kissing some slob and regretting it in the morning. Don’t you think? I’m not sure either, but that is the way it happened.

Hope you all are getting your connections today.

The Single Girl

Back into the Swing of Things

This morning I went back to my trainer for the first time in months. I think it went well, but I have a feeling I will be in some pain tomorrow. No matter what the pain is like tomorrow I am really happy to be getting my routine back.

That’s all for today, other than I am heading out of town so posting is going to be sporadic at best.

Hopefully, I will have something juicy from this wedding!

The Single Girl

Now What?

Last night the SSM and I had a 45 minute phone chat. Nothing earth shattering just catching up on our last 3 weeks, he has been on holidays and enjoying life and I have been dealing with family crises and not enjoying life (for the most part). On the wise council of The Lady I never steered the conversation towards “us” because I just don’t need the additional heartache right now.

I told him I had other phone calls to make that evening so I had to go he was fine with that he also had things to do and then there was this silence big as a Galaxy and everything we weren’t saying to each other filled it up in about 20 seconds. I thought the air in my room was going to be sucked out into the phone along with all the unspoken words. Finally I said “Okay I am going to hang up now” he laughed, probably happy to have the tension broken and we said our goodbyes.

I really want to text him or to email him and tell him it was good to talk to him but I think at this point I need to let everything settle for a while before I make contact again. It will be really hard for a day or two but in a few days I will have other distractions to keep me occupied and it will become easier.

Speaking of distractions I am going to a wedding on Saturday which will be a good opportunity for me to scope out some boys and have some fun. Someone once told me the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else ;)

Okay I am definitely not be ready for that, but a night a flirting and dancing will be great for what ails me.


The Single Girl

Have I mentioned I Am On A Detox?

For the past eight days I have not been allowed to consume the following; wheat, dairy, sugar, yeast or alcohol. The roomies and I decided starting right after the labour day weekend that we should take some time and clean ourselves out after our summer of overindulgences so we all went on the wildrose detox program. Twelve days of cleansing pills, a slightly restrictive diet and NO ALCOHOL. I am on day eight today and I can say with all confidence I haven’t cheated once.

Only four more days to go and then I will be retoxing in a serious way.

Happy Monday!

The Single Girl

Getting What I Need

I got home from work on Friday to find an email message from the SSM. After reading his generic I’m safe on the other side of the country message and a beautiful and thoughtful message from another friend I finally broke down into tears. For weeks the need to release had been building about everything so I let it all out. I climbed in the shower and wailed. When I emerged from the shower GB was there and made sure I was alright by feeding me and sitting with me and listening to me cry and yell and generally have a fit. He is a good man and a good friend.

On Saturday I spent the day wondering how I would respond to the SSM’s message, or if I would even respond at all. I figured it was best to sit on it one more day, and the roomies and the lady both agreed that was probably best. This morning I woke up and knew what I had to say. In his message he told me if I ever needed anything let him know. So I emailed him and told him that what I need right now are friends, people I can call, lean on, cry to, etc. and if he was serious about giving me what I need then he should call me. Actually pick up the phone and call.

I am somewhat amazed to report that he called the same day as I sent the email. I was in a show so my phone was off – which I think was good in a way – so he left a message. Not sure what will happen next, but I will call him back soon and we will see what happens. I don’t have any interest in re-hashing the whole break up, I am more interested in just finding out about him and telling him about me for now.

Where does that leave The Single Girl, not sure, but once I figure it out y’all will be the first to know.

The Single Girl

One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

I was doing really well this week with the whole I need to get over the SSM thing. I really was! Then today my cell phone told me I had a text message and my heart jumped in my chest because I actually thought it was from the SSM. It wasn’t him. It was GB texting to ask me a work question.

Gah!

Sometimes this stuff makes me feel stupid.

TSG

Ps. Sorry … it appears I only have short posts in me right now. But at least I am posting regularly … hint hint.

My Current Touchstone

It doesn’t matter that life is chaotic right now or that I am feeling sad a lot of the time or that my heart was broken a little a few weeks ago … because last night my two year old nephew told me he loved me on the phone.

Now I can face anything the world throws at me.

I hope this week all of you can find the touchstones that make your life and the tough stuff possible to survive.

TSG

Once Upon A Time ...

There was a single girl who traveled to the land of online dating to see if she could find a prince or at the very least a man. She roamed the land in search of a prince and came upon three dates.

The first date was no man but a troll who barely spoke and had no manners. So the girl ran away before he dragged her to the bridge he lived under to make her spend the rest of her days catering to his every whim.

On the second date she met a toad. He took her places and showed her some hidden treasures in the land of online dating. She thought this toad isn’t bad, I could have fun with him. The toad thought the girl was fun as well and convinced her that if she “kissed him” he would become a prince. She took him at his word and gave him a little kiss but instead of changing into a prince the toad became an ogre and scared the girl away. As she fled the ogre and the land of online dating she ran smack dab into an elfish man who picked her up and carried her safely away from the trolls and ogres to a small castle in the city and she thought no more of date number three or the land of online dating.

Some time later the elfish man left for a mission in a far of desert land. The elfish man told the girl he must leave and might never be back so she should move on with her life and find happiness with another elf or man. For many days and many nights the girl hid in her tower and thought of nothing but the elfish man.

Then one day she looked out her window and saw the third date from the land of online dating far off in the distance. As she looked into the distance she could not tell if he was an orge, troll, man or prince but she was a bit to scared of the orge and the troll to venture out of her tower and find out. So she sat squinting her eyes for days and days wondering what sort of creature the third one was.


Umm … that is where our story ends because the single girl doesn’t know what to do now. Door number three is still around on my messenger (unlike the other two) and told me if I ever became single I should send him a message, but after the first two experiences, I am not sure I want to take the chance on the third.

TSG