Now What?

Last night the SSM and I had a 45 minute phone chat. Nothing earth shattering just catching up on our last 3 weeks, he has been on holidays and enjoying life and I have been dealing with family crises and not enjoying life (for the most part). On the wise council of The Lady I never steered the conversation towards “us” because I just don’t need the additional heartache right now.

I told him I had other phone calls to make that evening so I had to go he was fine with that he also had things to do and then there was this silence big as a Galaxy and everything we weren’t saying to each other filled it up in about 20 seconds. I thought the air in my room was going to be sucked out into the phone along with all the unspoken words. Finally I said “Okay I am going to hang up now” he laughed, probably happy to have the tension broken and we said our goodbyes.

I really want to text him or to email him and tell him it was good to talk to him but I think at this point I need to let everything settle for a while before I make contact again. It will be really hard for a day or two but in a few days I will have other distractions to keep me occupied and it will become easier.

Speaking of distractions I am going to a wedding on Saturday which will be a good opportunity for me to scope out some boys and have some fun. Someone once told me the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else ;)

Okay I am definitely not be ready for that, but a night a flirting and dancing will be great for what ails me.


The Single Girl