Getting What I Need

I got home from work on Friday to find an email message from the SSM. After reading his generic I’m safe on the other side of the country message and a beautiful and thoughtful message from another friend I finally broke down into tears. For weeks the need to release had been building about everything so I let it all out. I climbed in the shower and wailed. When I emerged from the shower GB was there and made sure I was alright by feeding me and sitting with me and listening to me cry and yell and generally have a fit. He is a good man and a good friend.

On Saturday I spent the day wondering how I would respond to the SSM’s message, or if I would even respond at all. I figured it was best to sit on it one more day, and the roomies and the lady both agreed that was probably best. This morning I woke up and knew what I had to say. In his message he told me if I ever needed anything let him know. So I emailed him and told him that what I need right now are friends, people I can call, lean on, cry to, etc. and if he was serious about giving me what I need then he should call me. Actually pick up the phone and call.

I am somewhat amazed to report that he called the same day as I sent the email. I was in a show so my phone was off – which I think was good in a way – so he left a message. Not sure what will happen next, but I will call him back soon and we will see what happens. I don’t have any interest in re-hashing the whole break up, I am more interested in just finding out about him and telling him about me for now.

Where does that leave The Single Girl, not sure, but once I figure it out y’all will be the first to know.

The Single Girl