Thankful

I have to admit that I am a bit of a princess when it comes to traveling. I love being in a hotel with a king size bed, lots of pillows, a bathrobe and good shower. I even like making the little pot of bad coffee in the morning. It all feels so divine to me.

This business trip has a pretty good hotel. King size bed, check, seven pillows, check, a good shower, check … still haven’t checked on a bathrobe, but that is fine. I had this moment last night where I was talking with a colleague and I thought, I love my work, I am a very, very lucky girl. I get to go and feel like I am playing while I work. Who gets to do that? Travel, stay at a hotel and love working the whole time you are traveling.

Sometimes it is good to just stop, take stock and realize that life is good.

Hope you all can find a moment to stop and enjoy your world today.

The Single Girl

I Am Not an Animal

I didn’t have a date with iDate last night. He canceled a few hours before, saying he was tired and hadn’t had a day off in a long time and was worried that he wouldn’t be good company because he felt like a bump on a log. It sort of sucked when I read the message but really, I needed to go home and pack for my business trip so I wasn’t devastated. He did tell me to call him when I get back from my trip and we will go out then … his treat since he canceled, so it isn’t all bad.

To be honest … I am sort of glad we canceled because it was so cold here yesterday that I got FROST BITE ON MY EARLOBE and wasn’t feeling all that attractive. Hopefully by next week my ear won’t hurt or look like it should be amputated. Seriously dudes - when GB looked at it and grimaced I said your look says “wow, maybe that should be amputated. Hmm, would that make it look better or worse.” “Yeah, well I do have a sharp pair of scissors in my desk drawer…” “Not cool man, not cool.” Lord knows if I did go out last night I would have shared that brief exchange and shown off my grotesque, mutated ear and scared the poor man off before he got to know my softer side. I can just see him politely telling me he has an early morning running from the pub with a slightly disturbed look on his face and me screaming “I am not an animal.”

Sometimes my inability to keep my life and thoughts to myself can get me in trouble with people I don’t know very well. That makes this blog a good outlet, I can tell all of you about the pain, redness and blister on my ear and leave the nice topics to the people I meet out in the world.

Speaking of which … I am on a business trip, time to go out and do some business.

xo

TSG

Taking a Break

After what can only be called two weeks of lavish attention from both the SSM and Fireboy I have decided to cut them both off for about a week. I need a little break from the IMing, calls, texts, chats and such so I can step back and get a little perspective on everything. I told the SSM last night as we were chatting and he was fine with the idea and grateful that I actually said I needed a break instead of just hiding from him online for a week. I composed an email to Fireboy telling him I need a rest as well. I was kinda hoping to chat about it with talk to him, which is ironic … hi, yeah, I wanted to talk to you to tell you not to talk to me … but the email was fine and he too was very understanding.

I think this will be good for all of us. A break from everything to just think about each other (or not) and figure some things out. GB asked me how I was going to fill my days and I told him he was going to have to fill in the chatting gaps. He didn’t necessarily think that was the answer. I think I will be fine, I have a busy week including a business trip on the west coast so that will help keep me occupied.

I wonder if I will make it through the whole week? Maybe I will just blog more … does that sound good?

xo
The Single Girl

It might be a Date … but as usual I am not sure

On Tuesday I am going for beer and pizza with the new man (he needs a better name … but this is all I have right now). He gave me his old ipod so I offered to take him out as a thank you because he wouldn’t take my money. He liked the idea and we hatched a plan to take him to a bar he has never been to – and one of my favs.

Yesterday I had to stop by his place to grab the adaptor for the ipod and we chatted flirtily (I think I just made up a word) for a bit while GB waited in the car. A good sign that I might be headed into a date, but anyone who reads this blog regularly knows that I am a terrible judge of dates. Date or no date I am looking forward to hanging out with the new man.

Add another log to the complication pile.

The Single Girl

A Little Confused

Last night I went over to Awesome’s house to watch a movie. This in itself is not that surprising as I often go over there to watch movies or play video games or watch him feed his snakes … but I digress. We watched the sci-fi movie and I struggled to stay awake – apparently the sub I had for dinner had strong sedative effects. After the movie was over he sat up looked at me then wrapped me in arms and said “How you doin there sleepy?” “Sleepy” I replied and then fell asleep on his chest with his arms wrapped around me for a little bit.

We didn’t say anything for about 30 minutes I just drifted in and out of consciousness as he caressed my back and ran his fingers through my hair. “Whatcha doin?” I asked at some point, feeling a bit confused by the whole thing because we never snuggle. “Nothin, can’t a guy be nice to his friend?” “Of course you can. It’s nice.” I replied and nuzzled back in for a few minutes. “I should get you home” he said in a really soft voice. “Yeah, probably. I guess that means I have to move doesn’t it?” He gently rolled me on to my back looked me in the eye and then kissed me on the lips and said “Kinda.”

Then he drove me home, I thanked him for the ride and said I will talk to you tomorrow.

What is with all the boys in my life right now? Is there something in the air? I am not complaining … just a little confused.

The Single Girl

The return of the Vodka Source, the New Man and the Missing Piece of the Puzzle

Tonight I have a “date” with the Vodka Source. My evenings out with him have always proven to be alcohol fueled and full of fun. Tonight we are going to behave by seeing a play and not meeting for cocktails before. I have the gym in the morning so I am hoping that will be inspiration enough to stop me from having more than two drinks after the show. Sadly, I doubt it as we have been trying to get together for a date for over a month now. I think we will end up drinking and talking until quite late as we often do.

The new man is a man I have sort of known for a year or so through work circles but up until recently have never really talked to. A few weeks ago we were out with a large group and ended up sitting and drinking at the bar together while to a live band. We started talking about music and he ended up offering me his old ipod (because I lost mine over Christmas) and to make me a playlist of some of his favourite tunes. I still don’t have the ipod, or the playlist, but I think once I finally get them I will offer to take him for a beer to say thanks and to continue the conversation.

The Missing piece of the puzzle, that is a little more complicated than the other two. Back in the summer Mr. Awesome introduced me to one of his ex girlfriends and we ended up hitting it off and have sense become very good friends. We have lunches, dinners, drinks and sleepovers. We seem to always have things to say to one another and often end up talking for hours when we are only suppose to have one drink.

On New Year’s Eve she and I ended up snuggled up in front of the fireplace facing one another, holding hands and talking. Nothing happened but she and I are both very aware that there is a degree of tension between us. GB likes to call her my “girlfriend” and both of our mothers have pointed out that we have become fast fast friends. I don’t think anything would ultimately happen between us as neither one of us are really interested in girls, she is back together with her boyfriend and me, I have a small harem of men and boys on my mind, but it is a new thing for me, tension with a female friend.

I just thought you all should know that the SSM and Fireboy don’t take up all the room in my brain, there are a few other complications orbiting around right now as well.

Here’s hoping your mind is a bit less full my faithful readers.

xo

The Single Girl

If I could commit to TSG by Fireboy and the SSM

Where do I start … the week was great. The boys and I went to theatre and music shows, stayed up until the wee hours talking about our life plans, made meals, Went for drinks and pizza, I went to work during the day and they played at home … all in all we had a wonderful time together and the roomies had fun with us too.

On their last day at the house the boys decided it would be nice to do the dishes for me and the roomies as a thank you for the hospitality. Not long into their good deed they discovered the drain was broken and went from dishwashers to amateur plumbers. While having adventures in plumbing each boy talked about what their life could be like if they could commit to me. They admitted to having pangs of jealousy about my relationship to the other and why right now a relationship won’t work. Then they each talked to me.

Fireboy told me that currently things are too complicated but, that in a different time and place he would like to pursue a relationship with me. He likes me and my style and the focus I have for my career and friends. After two years of being lovers and now friends, he has a crush on me.

The SSM told me he doesn’t know what to do with me. At times he feels guilty for keeping me around. He feels selfish for keeping me around because I make him feel good and that right now he can’t commit to the potential of what this could be.

I told Fireboy that I was extremely flattered and that in a different time and place I would like to see where this relationship could go as well, but for now, being friends has to be the focus. To the SSM I said, whether he believes he can or not, he is already in a relationship with me. I then told him that I like things as they are between us and for now a casual long distance relationship is all I can handle.

What does this all mean? I have no idea, but it is pretty flattering, confusing and complicated. I think I need a few days to sort through all the words, thoughts and emotions expressed over the past week.

The Single Girl

Ps. For you voyeuristic readers the SSM slept with me and Fireboy was on the couch. Oh and the drain is still clogged.

Busy with Complication on Top

Okay, so I didn’t have time last week to blog because work was too busy, this week, work is still busy but I also have the added complication of Fireboy and the SSM staying with me for the next few days.

Sometimes I don’t know how I do it.

More to come if I can find 10 minutes when they aren’t near me so I can keep you all up to date.

SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! They don’t know I have a blog.

;-)

TSG

Sorry Gang

Every time I try to write this week it feels wrong. There is a lot to say but no words to express.

You know?

I promise, I will find my my words soon.

TSG

Animal Kindgom

This morning walking to work I saw a coyote or a something coyote like devouring a squirrel while half a dozen magpies waited for the leftovers. It is both horrifying and fascinating to watch. Watching the coyote eat wasn’t the horrifying part, the magpies watching and waiting was more horrifying really. These birds about the same size as the squirrel smacking their lips waiting for their chance at the carcass made me strangely sad for the state of animal affairs. I realize I was just anthropomorphizing all the players into some strange human society, but it still made me feel a little down.

Anything weird happening in your worlds on this fine Monday?

The Single Girl

No longer a candidate for Go Fug Yourself

While shopping for handbags

TSG: Ooooh. I love this bag. This one is pretty good too.

OR: I love that their bags are vegan.

TSG: Totally! Man, SnH would be so proud to see me shopping for a handbag.

OR: I think SnH is proud everyday you no longer keep your wallet in your back pocket.

TSG: So true ...

The Plan

While wandering around a book store a few weeks ago with Roomie I picked up a 2008 Chinese horoscope book and flipped through the pages find out what the year ahead might bring. The upcoming year of the rat could be a very good year for me (shocking a horoscope book promising good fortune … but I digress). I can get almost anything I want; as long as I know what I want it will be there for the taking.

I don’t spend much time thinking about what I want. I spend time working, doing and having fun but actually sitting down and thinking about five years from now or ten years from now isn’t something I have been very good at in the past. I seem to just land in jobs, accidentally end up in relationships and spend time with wonderful people who seem to wander into my life off the street. It maybe time to sit down and think about what it is I want for from this little life of mine.

It isn’t easy to write down a plan for your life, but I am committed to spending the next few weeks trying. I promised myself that by the time “The Rat” gets here I am going to have thoughts, dreams, goals and other things written down for myself in both the professional and personal columns of my life. Big, small, tangible, ethereal, they are all going to be there. I am excited about the process of categorizing my life and terribly nervous about implementing the list once it is written.

Wish me luck!

The Single Girl