While in the centre of the universe I saw the SSM – which I briefly mentioned before – what I didn’t mention is that we had a bit of a tryst. It wasn’t my intention, but on some level I knew something would happen when I saw him. I was hoping it would be something that would help me close the door on this chapter of my life but it appears that I have successfully opened a door and maybe a few windows.
The only good thing is that he and I are talking about what happened (is happening) and trying to be really honest with each other. We have talked about how things ended and the fact that each of us promised ourselves that we would not get tangled up with the other one when we saw each other (opps!). He knows that I am a bit of an emotional mess and I know that he needs freedom to date and live his new life on the other side of the country. And yet, with all that info we still want to talk and spend at least virtual time together.
We have decided for now that we are going to leave things vaguely messy and do our best to keep the shit storms to a minimum and the honesty to a maximum.
Oh man, if I didn’t know me and I was reading this, this would be the point when I would laugh and scream at the screen “Who are you kidding, there is nothing vague about it. This has messy written all over it.” But sadly I do know me and messy won’t stop me from wading in. At least I’m not boring …
The Single Girl
7 comments:
::raises glass to toast...::
I hope you are toasting me not being boring, and not my stupidity ;)
Either way, thanks!
well, I was toasting your admission of stupidity (hey, I'm right there with ya!) - it takes guts and awareness to see and admit what you're doing, but hey: We do what we do. Sometimes the stage mentality isn't all that bad: "If you're going to screw up - Do It Big!"
Here's to ya! ::clink!::
.... and if something should not work out, being unafraid to move on, and try daring, brazen, and occasionally stupid things might just give you an in to a passion in life you didn't know you had!
Cap. You are officially my life coach, until further notice.
w00t!
As official life coach, I unofficially advise you to try West Coast swing and motorcycling. C-; ....what are you doing for New Year's? There's a boatload of people going to Boston for New Year's Dancin' Eve.... (newyearsdancineve.com)
just make sure you're taking care of yourself kay?
I will try. Thanks for caring.
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