Finding the Balance

When I start dating someone and things seem to be going well I do a pretty good job of sabotaging things in my own head. One of my classic errors is that I want too much time from the object of my affection and when they don’t want to spend time with me 24/7 I get frustrated and leave, or start seeing someone else, or in the worse cases I push it down pretend I don’t want to be near them and just make myself crazy seem uninterested and then they leave.

Right now, with the SSM – who isn’t a boyfriend but is definitely becoming someone I like to spend my time with - I am trying to remember to keep balance in my life. My full, rich, keeping the dream alive life that involves spending time with lots of people and having many adventures. For years now I have been a woman who doesn’t have or need a boy to spend time with – and I seem to do alright (read blog for further evidence.) Right now I just have to remember that for two reasons 1. I do not want to be one of those people that gets into a (dare I say it) relationship and abandons their friends for months at a time and 2. I strive for balance in the rest of my life, so I should find it in this part to. Some days it is easy to remember, other days it is hard, but I am working on it. I think if I can figure this and a few other small things out, I may be on the road to having a relationship again … someday.

Baby steps people! It is all about baby steps.

TSG

Ps. I know I promised a story about last weekend, but everytime I try to write it down, the words aren’t flowing. I might do the Coles notes version soon, but we will see.